We all want what we do to matter, don't we? I ask because I need your help. There are a couple of other projects that I put a lot of work into for no compensation and very little to no recognition. One project at least gets me profuse thanks from the staff and director, but is that enough?
I've been writing for an on line news and entertainment source since March. It takes a big chunk of time to research and develop article ideas. You'd think that when you approach people and ask them if they'd like to be interviewed for an article that will give them and their organization/business, etc. free advertising/publicity that they would jump at the chance. It ain't so folks. The last interview I did, it took me three months to talk the guy into it.
Supposedly, if we plug in all available bells and whistles here and there, we make a little bit of money off these endeavors. I have yet to see one penny.
That leads me to pose the question, "Is it really worth it?" Sure my work, name, and face are all over the Internet, but does anyone see it? Does anyone really care?
Judging from the coments I've received on my articles and blogs or rather, the lack thereof, I gotta say no. Total comments received on this blog, another blog which I've written since January (both), and my articles at the other site equal maybe 10 total.
It's months of work, an amazing commitment of time and energy. For nada (except a pat on the back for my volunteer work, which I greatly appreciate, guys.)
"So why do it? Are you crazy?" you might well ask.
The answers to those questions are easy. It's what I do. It's what I love to do. I am a writer. It's one of two things I truly enjoy doing, and that I feel I do very well. Don't ask me what the other thing is, but I once made more money at it than I've ever made writing. I like to delude myself that all these extracirricular activities mean something. The issues they address, the activities they promote are important to me, and I want to share that with others.
But do these "others" or anyone at all, give a rat's butt that I do it? That's what I don't know. Sometimes that makes it very difficult to continue. In fact in the case of the two blogs and the on line literary reporting I've been neglectful for a full month.
Posting here and on my other blog today after 30 days of inactivity has renewed my commitment to what I do. Tomorrow I'll submit a new literary article to my reporting site. I may as well enjoy all this time I have to write, because when I finally get paying work, I won't have as much time for it.
I may well never make a living writing. Oh well. That saddens me, but I'll keep doing it. Because I can. Because even when it seems like times are tough and my effort is irrelevant, writing makes me feel good. Writing is a hopeful thing that never lets me down in the long run. It always gets me where I want to go, even when it takes me the long way.
So yeah. It's worth it just for that.
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